I want to start this post with a story I have not talked about a whole lot on social media or here on my blog. A few years ago when I was 24 years old I knew there was something wrong with me, but I didn’t know what. I eventually found out after many doctor and hospital visits that I had what’s called a borderline ovarian tumor on my left ovary. I had a cyst the size of a lemon removed in surgery and since then I have regular check-ups with my gynaecologist to monitor these potentially dangerous cells. Now, this all sounds very dramatic however, I am totally fine. It just means I have a higher chance of getting a tumour or it turning into cancer, and if things get really bad, they would have to remove one of my ovaries. But I am being closely monitored.
*Please take this opportunity to go to your doctor and get a scan, sometimes there may be zero symptoms of this and it is important to be mindful of your health*
I won’t die from this, and I am told this shouldn’t affect my fertility too much, however it was still a shock to learn all of this and to deal with my body not working the way it is supposed to.
That’s pretty much when I got really into working out. but, that’s just a sidetone
One of the side effects of having lots of different tests, trying out different contraceptive methods such as the pill, the implant, to now having the coil because it is the best thing for me. All of this messing around with my body’s hormones has lead to my skin being pretty bad – all the time. I have a low grade of adult acne.
And that shit sucks. I have never had clear skin, not since I was a pre-teen. And it got pretty bad when I was 25/26, and it massively knocked my confidence. I would cover these big red painful bumps with makeup, which to be honest, just looked worse.
But I felt so down in my own appearance, my acne always flared up around my mouth and chin which made me so self-conscious when talking to people. It’s difficult to be in an industry where your face is essentially your brand when you feel so low on yourself.
So I decided it was time to do something about it. I started going to Beacon Face and Dermatology in Sandyford and Dr Orla who is a skin specialist who has been looking after me. She is incredibly knowledgeable about all things skin, and she found the right products and skincare regime to suit me. I am using Obagi Medical Products which are medical grade, which means you won’t find this stuff in boots. I also have Hydra Facials every few months to give my skin a deep clean, and I always feel amazing afterwards.
After a year of using these products, having these facials and Dr Orlas instructions my skin is finally at a place that I am so happy with. I still break out, and I don’t think I’ll ever have perfectly clear skin, but now I can manage it.
And the confidence which comes with good, healthy skin, is baffling. I’ve never experienced that before and now all of a sudden I feel so positive when I look in the mirror. I used to put on makeup just to pop around to the corner shop to pick up bread. I couldn’t and wouldn’t leave the house without makeup on.
If you’re having skin issues, I would recommend seeing a dermatologist. If you’re based in Dublin, I would recommend The Beacon. It didn’t happen overnight, but I have never been more comfortable or confident in my own skin, pun intended.